That's Life

That's life
That's what all the people say
You're riding high in April
You're shot down in May
I know I'm gonna change that tune
When I'm back on top in June

~That's Life - Michael Buble~

Facebook. What a great tool for social networking. I've been checking out my friend's blog and pictures. Only memories would flood my mind at that point.

Friends of the past, uncertain of what the other party perceive of the current friendship. Yes, I admit, things had been tough in the past, communication was lacking but what do you perceive our friendship is today? I myself is uncertain. I am willing to give it a second go, but do you?

Some of them used to be my close friends. When I read through their blog, part of me is happy for them as they are doing great and are always jolly. Although I am no longer part of their lives, I am generally happy for people if they themselves have found the joy of their life. But to be honest, another part of me is envious that they are so happy without me in their lives. This makes me wonder at times, "if I wasn't in their lives, would their lives be greater and of more meaning?"

How I really wish I could go back in time. I really do miss the friendships we once had. The times where we chatted, laugh and even rant about a particular matter. I am not pin-pointing to a particular person but rather, to a few. I've noticed that I have had quite a few "touch & go" friends of which I am quite sadden with. I am not sad at them, but just sad that such friendship evaporated and is nothing but a mere memory to me of which I could cling unto. I am not blaiming anyone. I just miss my friends, that is all. Some might consider our friendship as of insignificant, but somehow, call me stupid, call me sentimental, but I still appreciate and hope for our friendship.

But that's life. People come and people go. Only a handful will continue to be close in our life. Therefore, my advice here is, do treasure your friends around you now for not all of them will remain in your life. If they were to be a part of your memory, let them be sweet memories where you would miss in the future, rather than bitter memories of which you wish you could have let go a long time ago.

If only I could only turn back time. If only I could....

Father's Day Practice

Before Father's Day, the kids had weeks of practice with Teacher Kimmie. They were cute and adorable, simply lovely.

Meet my group. The best group ever, Group 4, spelled with F-O-U-R!

*How Li, the one Kimmie and Brenda always love*


* Natalie, my group leader*


*Ben Yee, yes Brenda, I know he asked u to add him in fb =( *

Hahaha.


*from left: Valyrie, Daryl, Adrienne*

There are more but I didn't take their pictures.

And now, Father's Day Practice Time with Teacher Kimmie.













One thing I love about kids is that they are so transparent. No fake mask, no hypocrites, no lies. If they love to sing, they'll sing and if they don't, they just lip sing. Kids, some might call them noisy, annoying, troublesome, but I call them a blessing. Sometimes, the best feeling you could have as a teacher is to see your kids grow up to be God-fearing and also full of love and compassion.

How bout you? What does kids mean to you?

*P.S. - Welcome aboard Miss Kimmie Kimberley Tan into our CW class. DH2b! looking forward to working with you more often teacher Kimmie. *

Down the pipelines.

Will post about CW kids Father's Day practice soon. Wait for it!

Dragon Star Seafood Restaurant.

DRAGON STAR SEAFOOD RESTAURANT, 54A & 54B Jalan SS1/22, Kampung Tunku, Petaling Jaya, Selangor

Tonight my neighbour brought my family and I to dine at this place. There was prawns, so I took out my ring (yes, my favourite one which I always wear). After consuming lots of prawns, enjoying the meal and chatting around, we left.

Moments later, as I just entered my car, I noticed there are 2 waitresses out near the parking area. Sitting comfortably in my car, I looked at them. As our eyes met, they approached me. And guess what? They returned my ring. Looks like I left it there and they have so kindly return it to me. I was shy so I just said, "xie xie". (I nearly said, "Xie Xie, Wo Ai Ni" and I told myself, "Brian don't be cheeky, these are strangers, not your friends".

IF my family wasn't there, I might thank her and ask her for her number so that I can repay her kindness by bringing her supper. But too bad, I am always a shy guy who can't think properly at situations like this.

In conclusion, what I was trying to say was, I LOVE the service there. They could have easily kept the ring or even throw it away, but yet they came downstairs, looking for a customer who left it. Very good first impression I have of that place. By the way, the food there wasn't too bad and is actually quite nice.

Memory Lane

Sometimes when I accidentally fall through memory lane, past wounds and feelings were opened up once again, creating a gush of overwhelming emotions that could change one's appearance and attitude within seconds.

When walking pass the lane, I opt to think, "Why did I do that?", "Why was I so stupid?", "If that would have happened, how would it be different now?" ,"Will I be better or am I still the same?". Questions after questions as such flows into thought, making one more vulnerable mentally and emotionally. Past failures crushes the chance of an emerging new hope. To be honest, there are some areas in my life I wish it would had been better in the past. Like what my friend told me, "If wishes were horses, beggars would ride". So no hope wishing too much but rather try to work harder for a brighter future.

But as I look through my failures in my Memory Files, God reminded me of how much He has already blessed me with. There are countless blessings that He has given me that was totally unexpected. And when I look back and stroll even slower down Memory Lane, I managed to notice the little happy things that God has put into my life. Sometimes it happens, we are too busy focusing on our disappointments and failures that we fail to notice the blessings and success we once had. Instead of letting our disappointments pull us down, we ought to let God's blessings encourage us.

For instance, I really really wish I could study overseas. But when I look back, at the start, I wasn't even able to have a tertiary education due to financial reasons. But God took care of me and blessed me with a 4+0 scholarship. Now I'm busy studying. God has indeed provided me with an education when at first, I shouldn't even be having it. And there are so many benefits of staying here locally, I get to serve in the ministry He has called me to be in, I get to develop existing friendships and I get to learn a humble lesson of being contented.

Knowing God has been my greatest success of which I do not regret at all. I know that the more we hope for something, the greater the disappointment if it fails. But our God is a God of Hope, a God of Love and a God of Grace. He had showed me more than these 3 aspects. So be it, I will still hope regardless of circumstances for the testing of faith develops perseverance. No doubt we grow stronger, wiser and more mature through the challenges that we face.

"As discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." Hebrews 12:11.

As of current, who am I to complain? I ought to be happy for what that has been given to me. However, as contented as I am, I'll strive harder in accordance to God for a better, brighter future. Why I say, "brighter future"? Because Jesus is the Light of The World. With Him, I am certain my life would be brighter. That is my faith. What is yours?

We become judgemental when Love is lacking.

Enuff said.

Tired of being Tired!

Lately, I noticed my temper has not been too good. I've been easily explosive and irritated.

Did some soul searching and found out the problem.

1) There are seriously some stupid people around me. Some are really selfish. For instance, girls. I know some girls who are pretty and I would say they have this Pretty Girl Syndrome where they are used to get things they want in the way they want it. They expect me to treat them so nicely like how other guys are doing. Well, I say "Dream On!". Just because the rest of the world treats you like a princess because they want a piece of you, don't expect me to be the same. Don't think I would be another one of your "slave". The fact is, I don't care who you are and no, I don't want a piece of you. I'm disgusted. When confronting you, you act innocently and as if you were unaware. Well, I don't believe in it. So anyway, I'll only treat you like an ordinary friend, so please don't expect more.

2) There are really some cheapskate rich people around me. Darn man. They are far richer than me yet more calculative. When Rm9 is split between 2 people, he has to always pay RM4.50, with all the coins. At times, I just pay RM5 and he pay RM4 so that it won't be so troublesome. When its his turn, wow.... And if RM10.00 is split between 3 person, he would pay RM3.30. He would never be the one paying RM3.40. Just 10 sen difference. Sigh. Sometimes I wonder, even a poor man like me can be generous and not so calculative with friends, why can't a more capable rich friend at least do the same?

3) There are some people who only befriend others just because they are of benefit to them. When someone isn't of benefit to them, they wouldn't even bother being nice. There is this intention behind every friendship made. How cruel is that? When someone is less capable than you and can't contribute much to you, you tend to neglect them? Only when you need them, you be nice to them? I say, "Screw You!". Let me teach you a lesson of friendship. Regardless of status, ability and wealth, you make friends with someone because you love them. It is that simple! If you're not capable of generous love, I pity you. Not everything is like business where you only make connections when it benefits you....You disgust me on your views of friendship.

4) I am hating what I've become. Sometimes I dislike myself till an extent I want to hurt myself. I procrastinate at night, sleeping late so that I could sleep in lecture the next morning. It is very unlike me but I guess a part deep down of me just want to cause harm to me. But sadly, I also love myself to some extent that after procrastinating, I make sure I revise a little and do my tutorials, causing me to sleep super late. Sigh. I'm pretty screwed up lately.

I was once easily angered because it was on my nerves. Now I've reached a point where I don't even bother. I am having this, "screw it" attitude. I don't even bother anymore. Pointless. It just makes me more angry and disappointed. So why bother such things when it only stresses you out. I'm just so tired lately of the world, of my surroundings that I would just want to give up, take a break, relax and just sleep. That is why most of the time you're either seeing me gaming or assignment-ing or sleeping. Drowning myself with things to do seems to be a temporarily solution lately. This is what happens when you're disconnected from Him.

Time to reconnect my modem with Him. To reach Him, I must first reach my modem once again.