We Love because GOD first loved us

That's Life

2010-07-06T00:20:00.003+08:00

That's life
That's what all the people say
You're riding high in April
You're shot down in May
I know I'm gonna change that tune
When I'm back on top in June

~That's Life - Michael Buble~

Facebook. What a great tool for social networking. I've been checking out my friend's blog and pictures. Only memories would flood my mind at that point.

Friends of the past, uncertain of what the other party perceive of the current friendship. Yes, I admit, things had been tough in the past, communication was lacking but what do you perceive our friendship is today? I myself is uncertain. I am willing to give it a second go, but do you?

Some of them used to be my close friends. When I read through their blog, part of me is happy for them as they are doing great and are always jolly. Although I am no longer part of their lives, I am generally happy for people if they themselves have found the joy of their life. But to be honest, another part of me is envious that they are so happy without me in their lives. This makes me wonder at times, "if I wasn't in their lives, would their lives be greater and of more meaning?"

How I really wish I could go back in time. I really do miss the friendships we once had. The times where we chatted, laugh and even rant about a particular matter. I am not pin-pointing to a particular person but rather, to a few. I've noticed that I have had quite a few "touch & go" friends of which I am quite sadden with. I am not sad at them, but just sad that such friendship evaporated and is nothing but a mere memory to me of which I could cling unto. I am not blaiming anyone. I just miss my friends, that is all. Some might consider our friendship as of insignificant, but somehow, call me stupid, call me sentimental, but I still appreciate and hope for our friendship.

But that's life. People come and people go. Only a handful will continue to be close in our life. Therefore, my advice here is, do treasure your friends around you now for not all of them will remain in your life. If they were to be a part of your memory, let them be sweet memories where you would miss in the future, rather than bitter memories of which you wish you could have let go a long time ago.

If only I could only turn back time. If only I could....

Father's Day Practice

2010-07-02T00:35:00.006+08:00

Before Father's Day, the kids had weeks of practice with Teacher Kimmie. They were cute and adorable, simply lovely.

Meet my group. The best group ever, Group 4, spelled with F-O-U-R!

*How Li, the one Kimmie and Brenda always love*

* Natalie, my group leader*

*Ben Yee, yes Brenda, I know he asked u to add him in fb =( *

Hahaha.

*from left: Valyrie, Daryl, Adrienne*

There are more but I didn't take their pictures.

And now, Father's Day Practice Time with Teacher Kimmie.

One thing I love about kids is that they are so transparent. No fake mask, no hypocrites, no lies. If they love to sing, they'll sing and if they don't, they just lip sing. Kids, some might call them noisy, annoying, troublesome, but I call them a blessing. Sometimes, the best feeling you could have as a teacher is to see your kids grow up to be God-fearing and also full of love and compassion.

How bout you? What does kids mean to you?

*P.S. - Welcome aboard Miss Kimmie Kimberley Tan into our CW class. DH2b! looking forward to working with you more often teacher Kimmie. *

Down the pipelines.

2010-06-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

Will post about CW kids Father's Day practice soon. Wait for it!

Dragon Star Seafood Restaurant.

2010-05-23T20:26:00.002+08:00

DRAGON STAR SEAFOOD RESTAURANT, 54A & 54B Jalan SS1/22, Kampung Tunku, Petaling Jaya, Selangor

Tonight my neighbour brought my family and I to dine at this place. There was prawns, so I took out my ring (yes, my favourite one which I always wear). After consuming lots of prawns, enjoying the meal and chatting around, we left.

Moments later, as I just entered my car, I noticed there are 2 waitresses out near the parking area. Sitting comfortably in my car, I looked at them. As our eyes met, they approached me. And guess what? They returned my ring. Looks like I left it there and they have so kindly return it to me. I was shy so I just said, "xie xie". (I nearly said, "Xie Xie, Wo Ai Ni" and I told myself, "Brian don't be cheeky, these are strangers, not your friends".

IF my family wasn't there, I might thank her and ask her for her number so that I can repay her kindness by bringing her supper. But too bad, I am always a shy guy who can't think properly at situations like this.

In conclusion, what I was trying to say was, I LOVE the service there. They could have easily kept the ring or even throw it away, but yet they came downstairs, looking for a customer who left it. Very good first impression I have of that place. By the way, the food there wasn't too bad and is actually quite nice.

Memory Lane

2010-05-18T09:28:00.003+08:00

Sometimes when I accidentally fall through memory lane, past wounds and feelings were opened up once again, creating a gush of overwhelming emotions that could change one's appearance and attitude within seconds.

When walking pass the lane, I opt to think, "Why did I do that?", "Why was I so stupid?", "If that would have happened, how would it be different now?" ,"Will I be better or am I still the same?". Questions after questions as such flows into thought, making one more vulnerable mentally and emotionally. Past failures crushes the chance of an emerging new hope. To be honest, there are some areas in my life I wish it would had been better in the past. Like what my friend told me, "If wishes were horses, beggars would ride". So no hope wishing too much but rather try to work harder for a brighter future.

But as I look through my failures in my Memory Files, God reminded me of how much He has already blessed me with. There are countless blessings that He has given me that was totally unexpected. And when I look back and stroll even slower down Memory Lane, I managed to notice the little happy things that God has put into my life. Sometimes it happens, we are too busy focusing on our disappointments and failures that we fail to notice the blessings and success we once had. Instead of letting our disappointments pull us down, we ought to let God's blessings encourage us.

For instance, I really really wish I could study overseas. But when I look back, at the start, I wasn't even able to have a tertiary education due to financial reasons. But God took care of me and blessed me with a 4+0 scholarship. Now I'm busy studying. God has indeed provided me with an education when at first, I shouldn't even be having it. And there are so many benefits of staying here locally, I get to serve in the ministry He has called me to be in, I get to develop existing friendships and I get to learn a humble lesson of being contented.

Knowing God has been my greatest success of which I do not regret at all. I know that the more we hope for something, the greater the disappointment if it fails. But our God is a God of Hope, a God of Love and a God of Grace. He had showed me more than these 3 aspects. So be it, I will still hope regardless of circumstances for the testing of faith develops perseverance. No doubt we grow stronger, wiser and more mature through the challenges that we face.

"As discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." Hebrews 12:11.

As of current, who am I to complain? I ought to be happy for what that has been given to me. However, as contented as I am, I'll strive harder in accordance to God for a better, brighter future. Why I say, "brighter future"? Because Jesus is the Light of The World. With Him, I am certain my life would be brighter. That is my faith. What is yours?

We become judgemental when Love is lacking.

2010-05-18T09:25:00.000+08:00

Enuff said.

Tired of being Tired!

2010-05-05T14:03:00.005+08:00

Lately, I noticed my temper has not been too good. I've been easily explosive and irritated.

Did some soul searching and found out the problem.

1) There are seriously some stupid people around me. Some are really selfish. For instance, girls. I know some girls who are pretty and I would say they have this Pretty Girl Syndrome where they are used to get things they want in the way they want it. They expect me to treat them so nicely like how other guys are doing. Well, I say "Dream On!". Just because the rest of the world treats you like a princess because they want a piece of you, don't expect me to be the same. Don't think I would be another one of your "slave". The fact is, I don't care who you are and no, I don't want a piece of you. I'm disgusted. When confronting you, you act innocently and as if you were unaware. Well, I don't believe in it. So anyway, I'll only treat you like an ordinary friend, so please don't expect more.

2) There are really some cheapskate rich people around me. Darn man. They are far richer than me yet more calculative. When Rm9 is split between 2 people, he has to always pay RM4.50, with all the coins. At times, I just pay RM5 and he pay RM4 so that it won't be so troublesome. When its his turn, wow.... And if RM10.00 is split between 3 person, he would pay RM3.30. He would never be the one paying RM3.40. Just 10 sen difference. Sigh. Sometimes I wonder, even a poor man like me can be generous and not so calculative with friends, why can't a more capable rich friend at least do the same?

3) There are some people who only befriend others just because they are of benefit to them. When someone isn't of benefit to them, they wouldn't even bother being nice. There is this intention behind every friendship made. How cruel is that? When someone is less capable than you and can't contribute much to you, you tend to neglect them? Only when you need them, you be nice to them? I say, "Screw You!". Let me teach you a lesson of friendship. Regardless of status, ability and wealth, you make friends with someone because you love them. It is that simple! If you're not capable of generous love, I pity you. Not everything is like business where you only make connections when it benefits you....You disgust me on your views of friendship.

4) I am hating what I've become. Sometimes I dislike myself till an extent I want to hurt myself. I procrastinate at night, sleeping late so that I could sleep in lecture the next morning. It is very unlike me but I guess a part deep down of me just want to cause harm to me. But sadly, I also love myself to some extent that after procrastinating, I make sure I revise a little and do my tutorials, causing me to sleep super late. Sigh. I'm pretty screwed up lately.

I was once easily angered because it was on my nerves. Now I've reached a point where I don't even bother. I am having this, "screw it" attitude. I don't even bother anymore. Pointless. It just makes me more angry and disappointed. So why bother such things when it only stresses you out. I'm just so tired lately of the world, of my surroundings that I would just want to give up, take a break, relax and just sleep. That is why most of the time you're either seeing me gaming or assignment-ing or sleeping. Drowning myself with things to do seems to be a temporarily solution lately. This is what happens when you're disconnected from Him.

Time to reconnect my modem with Him. To reach Him, I must first reach my modem once again.

Busy Period, Shall Resume Soon.

2010-04-20T22:04:00.002+08:00

Sorry to all my readers (if there are any left). For the past few weeks I have been extremely busy with assignments, consecutive block lectures, meetings and events.

Shall update soon after I've finished some of my hectic schedule.

Random update:
1) Sharon introduced to me "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time" and I am currently reading it. So far so good the story.

2) Bought new pair of shoe (finally).

3) I've been very disappointed with Arsenal lately. They need to go on a shopping spree for a world class goalkeeper, a defender and a striker.

4) Having 2 weeks of block lecture sucks. Now is study break (filled with assignments and events) and the next week is assignment due plus another week of block lecture.

5) So fast it is already mid of my semester. Time flies.

6) Street Fighter 4 is a nice game. Too bad my laptop can't support the best graphics. Thanks Khee Kian for the game.

7) Life can be pretty messed up when things is not going your way from various aspects.

8) I have been eating a lot lately and gaining weight. Sigh.

9) I miss playing football and futsal.

10) I've got so many movies in my external hard disk but I can't find the time to see the shows.

11) I can't wait to watch IP Man2 and Iron Man 2. Not forgetting Toy Story 3. Sadly, I still didn't have the chance to watch How To Train Your Dragon. Too busy perhaps?

I hope these 11 random facts is sufficient to hold your interest to my blog. Anyway, take care folks and I promise I'll try to blog more often. Oyasuminasai.

What have I become?!

2010-04-03T20:25:00.003+08:00

~
Hold me in Your arms
never let me go
I want spend eternity with You..

Now that You're near...
Everything is different
Everything's so different now
I know I'm not the same
my life you've changed
I want to be with you
I want to be with you
~

Recently, I am having this feeling that I dislike myself.

For instance, recently my priorities have shifted unintentionally. Usually the primary reason I attend church is for God. For the past few weeks or even several months now, most of the time, I attend church for the wrong primary reason. My primary reason would be wanting to meet my friend where else my secondary reason would be only for God. It is not that I want to feel like that intentionally, it is just that, I have feelings and it tends to divert me away and prevent me from focusing onto God. When my friend can't make it to church last minute, I feel blue and disappointed.

What have I become? I am disappointed at myself and I admit that it has affected my Sunday school ministry.

Another example is that I realized I tend to rant quite a bit to people who are caring enough to listen to me. Again and again I rant about the same problem to those people. One day, I was thinking how could I be that selfish? They have their own problems and yet I am there to bombard them with my stories. How cares about my stories and would want to listen to them repeatedly? I have grown more selfish I noticed.

Once again, I am disappointed at myself. Even my studies have not been good so far. The thing that I am blessed with, and I am not even utilizing it properly. God has gifted me with this talent and yet I am not using it effectively just because of my problems?! How could I let this happen?! I tend to question myself more often and those questions led me to dislike my recent self even more.

I do hope that I might change for the better soon. Transformation is what I need. Do keep me in prayer please. Thank you.

21 March : Marry Me? Wait longer please!

2010-03-21T19:51:00.004+08:00

I read The Star newspaper today, Sunday 21 March 2010, F21.

It is an alarming article regarding the decreasing rate of marriage and the delay in marriage nowadays.

Just some interesting facts for you to ponder upon.

1) "A survey by the National Population and Family Development Board (LPPKN) on population trends between 2000 and 2007 revealed that Malaysians are now marrying later or not at all. "

2) "The average age at first marriage for men and women rose from 25.5 and 22.0 years respectively in 1970 to 28.6 and 25.1 years in 2000."

3) "Meanwhile, the number of those who had never been married between the ages of 25 to 29 years had more than doubled for women from 13% to 29.8%, while for men it rose from 32% to 54.9%."

4) "Some factions implied 'choosiness' and 'over-ambition' among single women as the root of the problem."

5) "Counselling lecturer Assoc Prof Dr Saedah Abdul Ghani of University Sains Islam Malaysia believes that the higher ratio of women than men getting university education (an average of 65:35) is making it hard for women to find someone who is compatible with them."

6) "For women, marrying someone with a lower social economic status is not appealing enough, while for men fear losing the title 'King of the household' due to social stigma", says Dr Saedah.

7) The main reason quoted by women for marrying late is the lack of the right candidate (40%). Refer below:

Reasons for not marrying (extracted only Peninsular Malaysia)
Male - Financial Problem (44.7%), No suitable candidate (19.3%), Career Advancement (12.8%).
Female - No suitable candidate (40%), Financial Problem (14%), Career Advancement (8.4%).

*source from LPPKN *

8) Dr Saedah states, "In the past, women were not highly educated but now they are more independent and are secure in their careers. They might find it hard to get the right man and therefore prefer not to get married".

9) Assoc Prof Dr Rumaya Juhari of the Department of Human Development and Family Studies, University Putra Malaysia, believes unrealistic expectations on the characteristics of Mr/Mrs Right also leads to the situation "of not being able to find the right person".

I like this the best at Number 10!

10) Dr Rumaya also stated, "They might say the market is really being squeezed - all the good ones are taken, the ones available are either not eligible or do not match the characteristics of their ideal partner".

Well, what is your point of view regarding this? For those men out there, now you have a better understanding on the trend of women nowadays and their reasons for marrying late or not at all, is because they have not meet their "Mr.Right".

For those ladies out there, do you think what is mentioned here is true or just mere inaccurate article used for media publicity purposes? Sharon Tan Li Wei, if you are reading this, what say you? I know you have strong opinions on this kind of topics. Haha.

Seriously, referring to point Number 7, why do single women nowadays have such challenging "check list"? I really don't get it. True that there is a knight in shining armor out there but not every single female is going to be able to find that one knight in shining armor. So why can't settle for anything less than this elusive knight in shining armor?

19 March 2010

2010-03-19T21:35:00.006+08:00

Taylor's Lakeside Campus Parking

For the past two weeks, 4 of my friend's car got into accident in lakeside campus.

Friend #1: His Wira headlights got knocked and the glass broke.
Friend #2: Her Saga car got key scratches although she parked a very legitimate parking which doesn't obstruct anyone else.
Friend #3: His car got scratches and dents all at the side of his Saga.
Friend #4: She hit another car bumper while reversing and didn't contact the victim whatsoever.

Lesson --> Taylor's Lakeside Campus has lots of noob drivers. Some can't driver properly while some just park their cars at such difficult places, making it super hard for others to pass through. Best to drive some cheap car, so that in case of any damages, it is at a minimal cost. Besides, there are so many irresponsible drivers. Knock other people's car and run. Hit and run bloody fool! Should at least leave your number to inform the person of your mistake and pay compensation. Do to others as you want others to do to you. If people knock your car and run, how would you feel?

*my friend took this picture*

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Stock Market

Question: If you know the stock price of the company is dropping and has very bleak hope of climbing up, what do you do if you still want to be a part of the company?

Answer: Sell MOST of the shares and retain some of the shares to still be a minor part of the company. Sell most of them to minimize losses. When the stock miraculously start to go up, fast fast reinvest and buy back.

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Tension

You know at times when u feel so tensed up and it makes you a little emotional? You just feel like releasing it at something right? Some people might throw things, some people might drink, some might sleep, some might cry and some might even go shopping. What do YOU do when you are tensed up and want to release it on something? well, I know what I do and I am not proud of it at all. Not one bit.

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Translation

A foreign language can be difficult so can body language. What do this person mean if that person were to react this way? The reaction and reasons of Person A might totally have a different meaning from Person B when both of them have the same actions. What I am trying to say here is, what works for one person doesn't mean it works for everyone. So be careful when interpreting a foreign language. Make a wrong interpretation and you're gone. Miscommunication occurs. Interpret it right and it brings you good as you can plan for it. The question is, is it worth interpreting? To interpret or not to? Just a food for thought.

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What say you?

2010-03-08T21:37:00.006+08:00

More Broga! (burn marks)

2010-03-02T23:20:00.006+08:00

As promised, the pictures of burnt Broga that day.

Now for more random nicer scenery of Broga.

* at the beginning*

* 1.7km more *

* Aaron, Me and Choo Xiang *

* I forgot what were we laughing at *

* the only picture with 4 of us *

* rest time, SOMEONE vomited here. LOL! *

* we know you love the rock Choo Xiang *

* the peak *

* our initials *

More Updates.

2010-02-25T17:38:00.007+08:00

19th February 2010

That was my final day as an intern in HSBC. I was in HSBC Taipan, Subang Jaya branch for 11 weeks, starting from 7 December 2009 till 19th February 2010. Part of me is glad that I'm leaving because I really miss being a student. Really dislike the politics but well, I know it is inevitable. I managed to learn a little on how to deal with politics. Some people are hypocrites, some are uncooperative and some are plain lazy. Am happy that I met various kind of people with different character and attitudes, from customers to colleagues to superiors.

But I am sad as I would be leaving some of my really nice and good colleagues. Will definitely miss them. Would be missing the salary too of course.

Overall, I am happy with my internship as I gave it my best and had no regrets. Managed to have a glimpse on the reality and cruelness of the working world. Eye opener indeed! A good learning experience for me. It was worth the 11 weeks I would say. In university,I can learn to be Book Smart but through internship, I can learn to be Street Smart.

22nd February 2010

Finally I get to wake up super late on a Monday. Woke up bout 11am. Was so bored, so I watched How I Met Your Mother for the whole afternoon. Almost done with the series, now already in Season 4. About 10 more episodes to go!

23rd February 2010

This is a very exciting day. Woke up early about 5am to go jungle trekking in Gasing Hill with Choo Xiang, Aaron Yip, Lin Yi and Alwin. Then went back home take a short 1 hour nap and off I went to HSBC Taipan, Subang Jaya to visit my colleagues and also to see the Lion Dance in the bank.

After that, I went to Taylor's Lake Side for an hour to visit friends and walk around. Surprisingly, as I parked my car, Lin Yi also parked her car beside me. What a coincidence. Anyway, after Taylor's, I headed to One Utama to watch Lighting Thief with Joanna, James and (I'm sorry I forgotten his name. I suck at remembering Chinese names). The show was good to me because there are mystical creatures like Medusa, Magnataur, Hydra, Hell Hound, etc.

After that, went home to shower and have dinner then off I go to "bai nian" and gambling session. Once again, I lost. Haha. So far all the times I gambled during CNY period, I have lost all my gambling sessions. Oh well, only once a year right? =] and it is the fellowship that matters most. I really did enjoy myself there.

24th February 2010

Morning I went to JPJ to renew my driving license as it is going to expire on 4th March 2010. Sadly, I wasn't able to do so because drivers are only permitted to renew their license 6 days before it expires. Wasted 30 minutes waiting. Aih. On the way back, I passed by around my high school area, so I just detoured to Samad. Had a little chat with my ex-teachers and then it is lunch time.

Since Samad is near Asia Assistance (located in Jaya One), I went there to visit my ex-colleagues and have lunch with them. After that, on the way home, I noticed my car is dirty, so I sent it for car wash and vacuum. RM10, 40 minutes? Since the car wash place is near Guardian, I went to Guardian to buy nail clippers, and other stuffs. And that is it! One whole morning and afternoon gone!

25th February 2010

Woke up at 4.30am just to go hiking at Broga Hill. After breakfast in Semenyih, we started our hike about 6.30am. Had lots of fun taking pictures, laughing at my friend for vomiting, carving our names on a tree, the fresh air and also the fellowship. Sadly, according to locals, Broga Hill caught fire just yesterday night! Some idiot smoker didn't kill his cigarette bud properly and it started the fire. This morning we went, there were burnt marks everywhere! Sad to see such things. Aih. It was a nice hike and I am glad I get to go there for the second time! =]

*picture before it was burnt, taken from Internet*

(sorry, the pictures are still in Choo Xiang's camera).

Updates updates and more updates.

2010-02-13T14:46:00.008+08:00

5 February 2010

There are 2 great events that happened on that day.

1) Shin Yi, aka. gal pal left Malaysia for a brighter future. For a greater education in University of West Australia (UWA). Can't believe it that another friend of mine is leaving to another country. But oh well, it is for the greater good. To be honest, I couldn't wait to see her in the future. Can't wait to see how she would have changed.

As we grow older each year, I noticed that we are getting more mature, in terms of conversation and in actions. Anyway, if you are reading this Shin Yi, I wish you all the best there and I want you to know that I really appreciate all the things that you've done here.

* you will be deeply missed *

2) I went "lo sang" with my colleagues in Ara Damansara. The good is nice! Savoured them! Then we headed off to a drinking session in G6. I don't know why but I do like the taste of alcohol. Beer, liquor, it is all good. To be honest, I did enjoy myself there but 2 days later, I regretted. I know I did some huge mistakes in that place and that will be a painful lesson for me to learn. Never drink too much until you can't think properly. Overall, that farewell drinking session for Miss Tan Fung Fung, our Premier Manager is worth it.

* the one of the most right is Miss Fung Fung*

11 February 2010

Had Joanna's 21st birthday dinner at Souled Out, Hartamas. It was the 2nd time I met her, first being during Rafique's UWE Charity Dinner. Well, from what I know so far, Jo is quite a nice person, sporting yet fashionable. She has a great smile, if you don't believe it, see the pictures below. It is always nice chatting with her. Anyway, if you're reading this Jo, I wanna wish you a Blessed 21st Birthday!! May God continue to shower you with His blessings!

* meet Joanna *

* This is what she enjoys doing *

* costume! *

* group picture *

13 February 2010

Today is Joanna's and Shu Wen's actual birthday! Met Shu Wen since 2008 during Taylor's Business Foundation. Kinda quiet, shy and at times too nice, she is a friend that I never regret knowing. Although she has left me to further her studies through UWE, we still meet up once in awhile. Happy 20th Birthday Shu Wen!! May you always continue to find peace and joy in life.

As of today, I am watching Season 3 of How I Met Your Mother. It is really a nice show, with lots of humor, roller-coaster romance and drama. It is suitable if you are planning to relax and watch something to loosen up. Thanks to Khee Kian for this show! =] Now I left season 3 and 4!

Anyway, I left 3 more days of internship in HSBC Taipan. It has been such a journey and I have indeed learn a lot from it. The most important thing is that, I managed to make some friends there. Some real nice friends who are willing to sacrifice their precious time just to chat with you and make you feel welcome. The sad part is, my last 3 days will be kind of lonely. Most of my close-colleagues are on Annual Leave for this coming week. Aihhh. Well to be honest, I am realy going to miss them. =(

That is all for now from Brian. Till then.

Away....

2010-02-06T12:00:00.001+08:00

Sorry that I have not been blogging recently (for those who still reads my blog). Been really busy lately. Shall continue blogging soon once things have subside. =]

Stay in tune, next update isn't too far away!!!

My Birthday for 2010.

2010-01-23T13:04:00.010+08:00

Sorry that recently I haven't been updating my blog. Am kinda busy lately. Long post ahead!

Anyway, my birthday was on 15th January (Friday). So on Thursday (14th Jan), my colleagues had a surprise birthday dinner for me. One of my colleagues told me that they wanted me to be in office after office hours to teach me regarding homeloans and its calculation. Although I took half day leave on the afternoon of that day, I came back to office. I worked from 8.45pm to 1pm, and then headed off to LakeSide Campus to settle some errants. About 4pm, I traveled back to office only to find that HSBC Regional Services Manager, Mr. Vincent Ho visited our branch. Thank God I came back to office because I get to meet a man of such caliber.

Cutting it short, after all these things in office, my colleagues brought me to Country Barn in Subang for dinner. Here are some of the many pictures taken that night.

* giving a speech *

* taking out the candle with my mouth *

* the after effect when someone pushed my face *

* Edward and Sui Lai *

* Claire *

* Kuan Fei *

* Feeding me a slice of cake *

* BAM! got slammed in my face *

* Hehehe *

* Li Ying and Kuan Fei *

* bottom from left: Claire, Li Ying, Kuan Fei*
* top from left: Edward, Annie, Andy, Mah *

* Group picture 1 *

* Group picture 2 *

* Annie, the organizer *

Thanks for planning and paying for the night! Appreciate it lots. *hugs* I really did had fun.

Now moving on to the next day, my birthday (15th Jan). I had another surprise dinner. Shan Lung initially invited me for dinner. I told him, "eh bro, dinner? I don't mind. I'm free. You can invite anyone up to you. Even if its just me and you, I don't mind." Then he told me only teong jin and him are having a small dinner for me. Knowing me, I don't really mind because its the company that matters, regardless of the size of the dinner.

Since I felt kinda sad having only 3 ppl for dinner, I invited another 2 personally, Alex & Mei San. So now we had 5 ppl! Perfect fit in a car. Last minute, Teong Jin had some emergency and can't go. So its left 4 of us. Oh well, I told myself, "Thank God I invited Alex & Mei San or else its going to be another date with shan lung. Hahaha." Moving on, when shan lung was driving us to PJ State to eat, I noticed he keep looking at the back mirror. (I was sitting at the front seat). So I was thinking, "maybe Shan Lung is frequently checking out whether is Alex doing something naughty with Mei San." Hahaha. So I just ignored that. In the end when we reached our destination, I was super surprise to see Ben, Nicholas, Vicky and Chin Wynn there!!

O.O

Vicky told me that they were tailing Shan Lung's car all along. (no wonder he kept looking at his back mirror). And she also said, "our plan worked cuz we used another car and we put ben in the front seat." LOL! What a racist joke but I'm sure ben is okay with it. He is darn sporting.

Anyway, here are the many pictures that were taken that night,

* ben and vicky *

* nicholas and chin wynn *

* chin wynn and mei san *

* my so called "hamsap" face *

* Shan lung, me, nicholas and chin wynn *

* Nicholas, Chin Wynn, Mei San and Shan Lung *

* Mei San *

* "Lala" pose *

* group picture 1 *

* Don't punch my face vicky!! *

* nicholas kicking some ass *

* shan lung hitting some balls *

* Alex showing his skills *

*huuuh?? How to shoot?! *

Anyway, thanks so much for planning this event bro. Really appreciate it much Shan Lung. I really really did enjoy myself that day. You ah Shan Lung, better stop being "naughty". Hahaha. And Teong Jin, if you're reading this, thanks for coming all the way to Paramount Garden on Saturday (16th Jan) to eat supper with me. Appreciate the effort!

That is all folks! See you soon in the next blog post!

*Cheers*

Blood Donation

2010-01-12T21:18:00.005+08:00

A sad news. One of my colleague's wife had a medical complication and lost quite a lot of blood. Thus SJMC allowed her to use a few pines of blood. After that urgent matter, my colleague is required to find people to donate blood to SJMC to compensate for the blood used in the operation.

Thus, HSBC Taipan came to the rescue. Me, Li Ying, Annie and Tracy went to SJMC to donate blood. Sadly, Tracy had taken medication and both Li Ying and Annie have not enough haemoglobin count. That leaves me alone to donate.

* Me being strapped down *

* gotten my squeeze ball *

Needle went in and there goes my youthful blood into the pack!

* a closer look *

Thank God both pretty girls Annie and Li Ying is there to keep me company throughout that 5-10 minutes process.. At least I had someone to chat with! =)

* Li Ying *

* Annie *

At the end, me and my pine of blood. Cheers!

In the end, I visited Mr. Roslan and his wife. The wife looks like she is recovering and my best of wishes to them and their family. May the wife have a speedy recovery.

Seagate

2010-01-03T21:28:00.004+08:00

Finally, after months and months of wanting to get one, I managed to get one due to the subsidize given by my cousin.

Here is my 500GB Seagate + leather casing.

Review of 2009

2010-01-02T22:34:00.007+08:00

I have 3 testimonies to praise God.

1) I thank God for a great University year. I'm quite satisfied with the Sem 1 and Sem 2 results that I've obtained this year. The effort that I've put in paid off I guess. But of course, I couldn't have done it without God's strength. Besides the examinations, I also won the Taylor's Finance Challenge 2009 this year. What an awesome experience. God has indeed provided me with a good mentor, supportive friends which was the key to my success.

2) I thank God that He has helped me in my spiritual walk. Initially when I serve in Sunday School, I expected that God was just using me to help the kids to have a better walk with Him. But instead, God also used the kids to bless my life. To be honest, I was barren spiritually and I thank God that my Sunday School kids in some way, inspired me and put me back on track. God spoke to me, "If you behave like that Brian, what are you teaching your kids indirectly through your actions? How long can you keep that mask on?" That wake up call was indeed a stepping stone for my spiritual recovery.

* p.s. - I'll really miss you Mikiko! *

3) I thank God for provision. I've just started my internship. I have limited ties, slacks and shirts. I know my mom would love to get me more attires but she couldn't due to my family limited financial resources. However, God proved to be faithful and His grace overwhelmes. My friend's family is moving to another country permenantly. My friend's father was so nice, since he can't bring all his clothes to the new country, he gave me some ties, shirts and slacks. Now I have more than sufficient clothes for my internship. Praise God! I think I have enough ties to last me a life time!! Like seriously!! haha.

Besides, as I wanted to buy a new external hard-drive so badly, my cousin was awesome and she said that she'll pay half for it. =] hehe.

Overall, thats just a small part of 2009 but those events are the ones that I'll remember for a long long time! Some parts of 2009 hurts alot and put me off-track, but I believe.......

Happy New Year peeps! Hopefully 2010 will be a colourful, rainbowful and wonderful year!

Success!!

2009-12-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

Regarding my previous post where I wanted to fast virtually, it worked more better than I expected!! Not only did I avoid going online, but I also avoided using my com for 4 whole days!! Monday all the way to Thursday.

Now it is officially Friday as it is 12.20am. Haha. Well, fasting was fun I would say. Rejuvenating. Praise God for it. Maybe I should fast more often then? We'll see about it.

Cheers!

Virtual fasting.

2009-12-13T21:34:00.005+08:00

How I wish I too could attend the Calvary Youth Camp 2009:Emerge but sadly I'm duty bound to pursue my internship. I believe that God has put me on this path for a very good reason, of which, till now, I myself isn't very sure of.

My friends are seeking God in Youth Camp, so I too want to seek God this week. I realized that I've been on my computer a lot lately. How about this? I shall fast virtually, no Internet for 4 days? Monday to Thursday. Instead, I would spend my time seeking God, going back to Him. I want to hunger more of Him.

Please Lord, grant me the strength to fast virtually. Amen.

This just came to mind, "The testing of faith develops perseverance." I really hate the feeling when your heart has that bitsy feeling, that makes your heart fonder. Maybe this time off from the Internet and instead, seeking God would provide me with answers, guidance and also peace of heart.

Christmas Shopping

2009-12-11T23:48:00.003+08:00

Wow. So fast I've finished RM300. Ouch! Oh well, this year I'm going for Quality over Quantity policy. Less gifts but the gifts are much nicer.

Now I only need to buy gifts for my Sunday School kids... What should I get them? 11 kids. Budget about RM30 left. RM3 each? Hmm... Or should I top-up my budget using more savings?

Looks like I have to restart saving again if I ever hope of getting the external hard-disk which I so need.

Nights~

Lunch before Futsal? Aweful!

2009-12-11T16:48:00.002+08:00

Woke up extremely late today about 12.20pm. Quickly rushed to wash up and then headed out to buy lunch (Pan Mee Large). By the time I was done with lunch, it was about 1.15pm. Rested for awhile and then headed off to Futsal.

The result was bad. I couldn't play well, couldn't run properly because my tummy felt weird. In the end, I vomited. Of course I vomited in the washroom. Anyway, I've learn my lesson, no lunch before futsal.

Darn it. Due to this discomfort in the stomach, I'm now at home blogging instead of doing my Christmas shopping. Was actually planning to go Sunway Pyramid to do Christmas shopping after futsal but looks like I have to wait till next friday. Aih....

Till next time...

2nd day...

2009-12-08T21:19:00.000+08:00

Better but still made a mistake.. gave a customer wrong info and he scolded me cuz he waited 15 minutes for nothing.. I apologized and that is all that I could do. =(

Thank God he only complained to me and not my bank manager...

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.. Please let it be...

1st day of learning...

2009-12-07T23:45:00.002+08:00

Well, I wished that I could have started my 1st day better but oh well, I did a mistake and I think I embarrassed myself.

Aih....why was I so careless?? Maybe I was too tired mentally and couldn't focus at the end. Oh well, time to move on. Shall be better for tomorrow!

Nights! :D

Leaving a friend....

2009-12-03T23:09:00.002+08:00

Today, tj, ben and alex came down to Petaling Jaya to have lunch with me. Once they knew that I had no car and couldn't travel to Subang, Teong Jin decided to bring them to meet me here.

Anyway, I brought them to eat SS2 famous Taiwan Noodles and then we headed off to I.N.C. Played about 3 hours.

But thats not the best part, this is. Once we left the place and entered Teong Jin's car, TJ quickly settled down and reply his sms. All of a sudden, Alex mentioned that he left his phone in the Cyber Cafe. He quickly notified Teong Jin and rushed back into the cybercafe.

Then, Teong Jin put his handphone down and just drove off. Yes, me and ben were having a stunned face. I quickly turned my head and guess what I saw?

Alex running, chasing after the car!!! Hahaha... Me and Ben quickly notified TJ and TJ took a quick look at the back seat only to find that Alex was missing!! Next thing we knew, Alex called Ben in anxiety and then we reassured him that we were coming back for him. We were laughing so hard in the car...

It is just simply so funny that TJ forgot to fetch Alex... But well, we understand TJ. He was busy sms-ing that particular somebody till he totally shut off towards his surroundings. He didn't even notice that Alex told him that he left his handphone in the cybercafe. Hahaha...

See what happens when someone is too busy sms-ing??? He leaves his friend behind, only to pick him up a few minutes later...

Inspiring..

2009-11-23T13:30:00.005+08:00

As I was reflection upon this one man's life, it is truly inspiring of how he has grown. It is just that, he worked so diligently and intelligently not for his own personal benefit but for his family. You should see the way he talks to his children and wife, absolutely loving. He would kiss his children goodbye every time before he leaves for work even though they are still asleep. A perfect family some might say.

Although he was raised up in a very wealthy family, he did not take wealth for granted. He understood the value of money. Even though his childhood wasn't a bed of roses, he stood strong and persevere. In the end, now, he is reaping the rewards.

He now has a great family of 3 lovely children. All of which he love so dearly and would sacrifice his precious time just to spend time with them. As a father (for him), I'm sure as for every father out there, he would protect his children, provide them not only with Love, but with Joy and the assurance that "daddy is always there for you".

And another thing about him is that no matter how successful he is, he still praises and give glory to God for all the blessings he received. Sometimes we tend to forget God when we are successful and have what we wanted but this man, he stood out, he kept his focus which was God. Amidst of all the fame and fortune, he still manages to put God as his priority. What a faithful servant.

And God honoured his faith. As he had a conviction to fund this project, God provided his business with good opportunities and huge profits which was more than sufficient to cover the funds for the project.

One word, INSPIRING. I too want to be like him, working hard, working smart and putting his trust in God, not to reap personal benefits, BUT to bless others, family, friends and God's ministry.

Brian's brain?

2009-11-11T17:14:00.001+08:00

It is simply frustrating when you try to do a question and get it wrong. The worse part is, I don't even understand how to get the answer and why is the answer so... grr... nevermind..back to studying..

Why Malaysia is like Rojak...

2009-11-07T14:15:00.001+08:00

Phew! Thank God it was just a dream...

2009-11-02T06:32:00.003+08:00

I just woke up, heart still racing. Yes, it was quite exhilarating but to be honest, I panicked.

The dream? or so called nightmare?

I woke up and guess what day it was? MONDAY! which Monday? 16th November which means I'll be having my first finals paper! QM! I panicked as I woke up because I have not started studying for QM at all. So I thought, "maybe I can study some, and then let my memory do the rest?"... a voice then spoke to me, "you've not been paying attention in class nor have you been doing your tutorials. There is no memory at all to help you". *gulp*

Quickly open some QM tutorials and take a glimpse. The next I know, it is already 10 minutes before exam starts and I'm still at HOME!! omg! To make things worse, I'm suppose to be in the exam hall 10 minutes before the exam starts. I quickly look for my car but instead, found a slow, white kancil car.

Tried driving as fast as possible, but the kancil wasn't just as fast as my proton saga. So I was literally stepping the pedal as hard as possible but the car instead betrayed me and insisted moving slow. To make matter worse, stupid Petaling Jaya area has tons of TRAFFIC LIGHTS!!! and all of them were RED!!

In my mind, I was already thinking, "sure fail already... wait, let me calculate, if finals I do half the paper, plus with my assignment marks... *calculates*, I think I could just pass it".

Swt right? The Brian whom you know is now just hoping to pass a subject. Haha..

Then I woke up... =D

Maybe God is telling me to study and not procrastinate anymore or else my dream might just come true... and maybe, God is telling me to drive more carefully even in times of desperation? Haha.. alright, story-telling time is over. Time for DSM assignment.

Close Call

2009-10-30T21:08:00.003+08:00

The skies were dark and rain was pouring.

Almost got into an accident on Federal Highway.

Maybe I was just tired and couldn't focus,
or maybe, just maybe,
that I was too busy thinking about some stuffs.
Just couldn't concentrate properly I assume.

Few minutes later, almost got into another accident.
God's protection? I'm sure it was.
Thank you God for the journey mercy back home today.

"That's life, that's what all the people say,
You're riding high in April, you're shot down in May,
I know I'm gonna change that tune,
When I'm back on top in June."
~Michael Buble~

Romance quotes??

2009-10-29T20:35:00.003+08:00

Saw a facebook video and these were the few catchy yet cheesy quotes. Not saying that its effective and all, but I'm just sharing it.

1) The reason why you never cross my mind is because you are always on my mind.

2) The reason I don't like you is because I love you.

3) The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left.

4) The reason why I wouldn't do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.

To me, too cheesy I guess. This reminds me of the things that secondary school kids would say though. Hmmm..

Oh well, that is all folks. Take care and have a good night. =)

P.S - Cheer up k? (:

Drained and dead

2009-10-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

I'm drained and I'm sleeping.

The worse part is, I have not study for my Economics 25% test tmr!!!

I have 4 more chapters to go, that is like 4 hours more to go? Where to find 4 hours? Aih...dead.. Not so prepared.. Hopefully my memory will save me... =S

Good night everyone. =)

Happy 21st Birthday Sis!

2009-10-24T20:25:00.008+08:00

Hey sis,

Although we have intense arguments at times,
Although we have dispute over minor minor stuffs,
Although we irritate each other so much,
Although we disagree with each other a lot,
Although you drive me up the wall at times,
You are still my sister. The one and only?
There is only one "Brian's sister". =)

Yes, at times we tend to fight over minor things such as having the car, fetching Adrian, getting dinner but I'm glad we still cover each other asses. (: Growing up with you for over 18 years certainly isn't a bed of roses, but it is certainly worth it. If you didn't have scold me on a lot of matters (I'm not looking forward for you to scold me more f.y.i), I would certainly won't be the Brian others know me for today. Too bad some of my friends think that you are fierce. =P

I am not a person of many words, but Happy Birthday. All the best in your future.

Glad to be the "Claryn's brother".

Love,
"Claryn's brother"

Of Bowls and Bowling.

2009-10-24T12:30:00.004+08:00

Free Bowling in Pyramid? Totally loving it. All thanks to the bowling club of Taylor's. All you need to do is just pay for the rental of your shoe. =)

Went there because my sister's friend invited me and also because I need to fetch my dear sister home.

* lisan on the left, sis on the right *

* "prettiest leng" and suet yen *

* Darren and Hamsap Ron *

All the italic names are their nickname in bowling. lol!

Bowling? Totally sucked at it already. Couldn't even reach 150 anymore. Aih.... But it is okay, it was just for fun. =D Toodles!

Team Force

2009-10-22T19:59:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, during the evening, TJ called me, asking me to have dinner with him and Vicky. Stupid SL can't make it cause he was "too busy" (if you get what i mean). Anyway, they were so nice to eat nearby my house. Picked me up and to Maybank we went.

The Mamak which is right behind Maybank, Sea Park is really nice in my opinion. Famous for their nasi lemak + indo mee + fried chicken. Forgot to take pictures so I search for them in Google Images under "Seapark Nasi Lemak"!!! =) And there is pictures!!! That shows that they are famous! Their sambal are heavenly. We took about 4-5 plates of it until the worker there said jokingly, "ambil sambal lagi ka?" Haha..

As usual, we chatted and catch up on things. In the end, we had a sponstaneous idea of overnighting in Vicky's house, to have a movie Marathon. So back to home, packed my stuffs and there we left for Vicky's place.

*webcam with sl using my laptop*

*the movie*

*tj being camera-shy (again!) *

Sometimes I wonder how did Karyn managed to take a picture of him last time. Haha.

Anyway, that is all I guess for now. Take care peeps!!

Zoo Negara

2009-10-11T09:12:00.009+08:00

Went to Zoo Negara with my fellow SSCG friends and also with some TBF and DIB students.

Overall, it was quite a good bonding session.

My friend taught me to see things in a different way. Shit do happen. It is just a matter how long you want to be disappointed in it. He said, use that bitter incident and gain knowledge from it. The knowledge will then turn into wisdom. Use that wisdom for the future. Keep on improving.

Besides, what are you thinking?

Finance Challenge 2009

2009-10-07T19:14:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was seriously an unexpected day. Firstly, I didn't expect one of the participant to underperform. Secondly, I didn't expect to see some friends of mine. To be honest, I really thought they wouldn't come for the event. Thirdly, I didn't expect that I would perform that way during the Q&A session. Lastly, I really didn't expect the results.

Overall, THANKS!! to you all who came and supported me. Benjamin, Teong Jin, Shan Lung, Shin Yi, Ashley, Sim Ee, Nicholas, Khee Kian, Shao Xian, Rizdwan, Ken, Rhey Khee, Yee Leng, Li San, Ronnie, Lye Kuan and May. Thank you all so much!!!! Special thanks to those who stayed all the way till the end, till the award ceremony. Sadly, some people couldn't make it. Aih, feel like having Wendy's now.....hehe... (sorry if I forgot to mention your name here)

Of course, I wouldn't forget about you sis. =) Thanks for coming and please, no additional stress to you k?

All in all, the journey and the experience was awesome. Thank you Miss Sheela for "forcing" me to join the competition. Hahaha. If it wasn't for you, I surely couldn't make it to where I am today. The throphy is really nice and heavy. Hehe. Paying in your lecture really does help in the Q&A. Haha.

Finally got the time to have a haircut. Loving my new haircut. =)

See ya soon peeps!! Hmmm.. Pan Mee + Fried Brinjal = YUUUMM... we go makan again la one day k? *cheers*

*someone help me for IF THE SHOE FITS!!!*

Walking Down Memory Lane

2009-09-26T17:54:00.007+08:00

Oh how time flies....
Oh how things have changed...
The good times and the bad times...
All part of the past now...
The present and the future...
Awaits me...

The U-Turn

2009-09-20T15:49:00.011+08:00

Finally I’m over this phase. I really want to thank God for blessing me with good Christian friends in church. For instance, I really thank God for my dear friend and life group leader, Joshua Cheah. Recently, I had gone through quite a difficult phase and sadly, resorted to some not so good actions. When I told Cheah about it, the best part was that he reminded me, no matter what happens, I should ALWAYS fall back on the word of God. To be honest, I have been lacking the word of God for quite some time. I seldom spend quiet time alone reading the bible anymore.

But due to Cheah’s advice, I look through the bible again. The bible really helps as the word of God is indeed a good guideline. You know when people tell you that the word of God is life and peace? To me, I believe it. The bible has reminded me about these 7 things:-

~ Accept one another then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God. Romans 15:7 ~

I should accept others just as they are. I should not have certain expectations of others. I shouldn’t expect people to treat me like the way I treat them because everyone is different and they have their own opinions, personalities and principles.

~ Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as Christ God forgave you. Ephesians 4.32 ~

Jesus forgave others so that I might learn to forgive like Him.

~ And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins. Mark 10:25 ~

I should forgive others in order for God to forgive me. In prayer, one cannot be close to God yet hold grudges in their hearts.

~ So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. 1 Corinthians 10:31 ~

Whatever I do, including doing good and loving others, it should be for God and not for my own purpose nor for the purpose of others.

~ God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help him. Hebrews 6:10 ~

I should continue to do good and love others for my efforts would not be in vain. Even though if people don’t notice it, God does and that it itself is assuring enough for me.

~ And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased. Hebrews 13:16 ~

Doing good to others makes God happy. I want to make God smile at me and say, “you have done well my good and faithful servant.”

~ Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. 1 John 3:18 ~

I should continue to love and care others with my actions even though it goes unnoticed. I should also do it out of sincerity and truth.

Overall, it reminded me that I should continue to do good and care for others as it is for God, not for myself. Yes, it might be tough and the things I do might go unnoticed and unappreciated, but yet, I should do it as it is the right thing to do. I want to try my very best to ensure my thoughts, actions, words and character reflects God. How about you? What do you want your thoughts, actions, words and character to reflect?

I miss the old Brian. Do you? Well, looks like I have to seek for my old self again.

A final reminder, as my blog title stands, We Love because God First Loved Us. (1 John 4:19)

Ghost of Girlfriends Past

2009-09-17T18:13:00.006+08:00

When I watched this show, I noticed that because of a devastating incident in life, an incident that twisted thy emotions, paralyzing one from love, could actually change someone as a person, in character, in behaviour and even in thoughts.

A person who was once nice when he was young, got hurted during his early adulthood, by a girl. Just because the guy choked and was slow and inexperience, the gal blew him off. And after that incident, that man's heart began to grow colder and harder like a stone, making the surface of the heart immune to emotions and impenetrable. The reason behind it is to ensure that the core of his heart, the most fragile and vulnerable part, wouldn't be hurted again anymore.

In the end, he turned out to be a man totally opposite of his past. A once nice and caring young gentleman grew up to become an emotionless, carefree jerk who is willing to hurt others just to ensure that he himself wouldn't get hurt.

But as all chick flicks are, there is always a happy ending. I shall not go to the ending as it is for you to watch. The main factor that attracted my attention is once again, how a bitter, painful incident in the past could change a man, not for the better, but for the worse.

I strongly recommend you to watch this show if chick flicks is your forte. Anyway, I watched all kind of movies except horror, but I do like gore though. And this is why I do watch chick flicks, cause it is not "horror" and its insightful as I get to learn more about women and their complicated thoughts.

Randomness

2009-09-17T15:51:00.004+08:00

Exactly like what Shin Yi said,

"couldnt care less zzzz".

Brrr... it is so cooold~.. coooooold~...with a C.O.L.D.
Are you cold?

Finally found my breaking point, which is a good thing. Now I get to budget for the future according to my own capabilities. Lesson learn, do not bare more than you could carry. It will just crush you in the end.

Or in the more common phrase, do not bite off more than you could chew. =) One step towards the future, here I come!! Weeeee~

The Voice

2009-09-15T20:15:00.005+08:00

Regarding to my previous thoughts, I had these in mind.

~ Do not withhold good from those who deserve it, when it is in your power to act. Proverbs 3:27 ~

~ A man's wisdom gives him patience; it is to his glory to overlook an offense. Proverbs 19:11 ~

~ Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses. Proverbs 27:6 ~

~ As water reflects a face, so a man's heart reflects the man. Proverbs 27:19 ~

~~ My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away,
When you knew that I was always on your side,
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear,
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away,
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why. ~~

(,")

2009-09-10T19:36:00.005+08:00

First and foremost, I apologize to you my friends for my stupid behaviour lately. You know who you are. I know I can get on people's nerves and be annoying at times. Things came about and I wasn't at the right set of mind, thus my unusual behaviour. I admit I didn't handle those situations properly and should have had managed it better.

Since what has been done has been done, I hope we can let bygones be bygones.

But now, I'm all better. Those who are concerned, be rest assured I'm alright. No more nonsense from me I promise. =) For those who are less than concerned, its okay.

And yes Jason, I promise you I'll try my best to quit.

Time to turn over a new leaf eh? =D

~ Hard to Say I'm Sorry - Chicago ~

Five Senses That Signifies The End

2009-09-09T19:41:00.007+08:00

Seen enough,
Heard enough,
Tasted enough,
Smelled enough,
and lastly,
Felt enough.

The End.

Recently, the global financial crisis has hit many organisations worldwide. Stock market plunged all of a sudden, causing loss and suffering to many people. Imagine if you are having lots of shares in the stock market and the market came crashing down. If you were to sell it now, yes, you will suffer a loss and some pain, but if you were to hang on to it and wait, the market will fall even lower and lower causing you to suffer even more loss and pain in the end.

Therefore, pulling out early and suffer some losses now is better I guess compared to hanging on and losing so much more in the end. Whether the investment is worth holding on, it depends on the individual. It is their call.

Watched "Everybody Loves Raymond" just now, this dialogue of Raymond quite caught my attention as I felt quite strongly to it.

Raymond: I don't want to attend the nominations because I don't want to have hopes in winning it. Imagine if I did not hope and want it, even if I fall, I might just sprain a leg or fracture something. But if I were to hope and want it, if I were to fall, I'll go SPLAT!!

Debra: Well Ray, I think you could win the nomination award. Look at the other competitors, you really do stand a chance Ray.

Raymond: Oh great! Now you have made me want it. *walks away*

Casualties of the day is 5. 3 kicked the bucket one by one. Highest record so far.

* By the way, congratulations Jason Ong Yu Sheng! You did well. Wish you all the best for both your future. Although you may be all the way in Australia, you indeed have blessed me tremendously. I really thank God for putting you in my life since we were young. *

Brain Wave

2009-09-07T16:58:00.003+08:00

As I was napping today, my mind has lots of thoughts in it. So in the end, it wasn't rejuvenating at all.

Anyway, I thought of this phrase while napping (semi-sleeping).

"A weak man conquers nothing. An average man conquers his body. A great man conquers his mind. But an extraordinary man conquers his heart."

Slap Me || Cool Zit

2009-09-05T20:05:00.002+08:00

I just slapped myself on the cheek. =(

Stupid mosquito....

The Coolest Zit EVER!

When There Seems No Way

2009-09-05T11:54:00.003+08:00

Recently, many things have been going on to so many people that I know. Well, this post is basically dedicated to everyone. You know if this post applies to you or not. Anyway, here is the message.

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength
For each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way.

End of the Tunnel

2009-09-04T19:51:00.006+08:00

Okaaay. I'm done thinking and I've finally made up my mind. =) Finally got one thing off my "food for thought" section in my mind. Hehe.

As what Sheen said, "The present and the past were the truth, the future always remains a prediction."

I'll be there
When the storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing

Now it is time to prepare for FA1 test and Finance Challenge!!

Think I can do it?? I hope so! Hahaha.

*the decision was mine to make and I made a baaaad one*

The Irony

2009-09-03T23:38:00.005+08:00

Haha.. aih.. sometimes I really hate you but yet I love you.. how ironic..

but what to do right?? sometimes the truth hurts and it is inevitable.

Chances and odds, worth going for? Better now than later? Better safe than sorry? I really don't know.

Give me some time to think about it. Please lead me on properly. I don't want to be misled into a wrong turning and get even more hurt.

But either way, I thank you. Time for some thoughts and see how it goes.

God please hold my hand and guide me through for the sight you have blessed me with is now useless for I'm blinded.

Down But Not Out

2009-09-03T20:13:00.002+08:00

I know things can be rough and difficult, it hurts and it feels like time just isn't enough. But be rest assured that your friends love you and care for you deeply. You know you have absolutely wonderful girlfriends who are there to support you even without you telling them to do so. You also know that your bros are always around to keep you company, to keep you off your mind.

God comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 2 Corinthians 1:4.

God works in many ways, and God helps you through your friends. Think about it, God blesses you with so many wonderful friends, to listen to you, to walk with you, to laugh and even morn with you. And the list goes on. What I'm trying to say here is that, no matter what is the problem, be assured that your friends are there for you.

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed but not in despair; persecuted but not abandoned; strucked down but not destroyed. 2 Corinthians 4:8-9.

All in all, I just want to tell you is that, You May Be Down But You Are Not Out! Take your time to get up unto your feet once more and face the world. Even if it is hard to get up, remember, your God given friends are there to help you stand. =)

And like what Ken taught me, I want to share it with you. "Smile and the world will smile along with you".

What Is Your Story?

2009-08-31T11:42:00.011+08:00

I had this thought recently. Have you ever wonder how someone has the capability and ability to change the people around them?

Well to me, I have met countless people like this. Life-changing people where they not only affect your life by filling them with love and joy but also the lives of people around them. They tend to make you reflect yourself, inspire you to become better and also encourage you to be the best of who you can be. Meeting those people fills me with joy and at the same time with inadequacy. Two contrary feelings in one moment. Sometimes I really wonder, am I good enough for others or am I what others are looking for?

The problem is, how would you view things and how would you interpret the situation? How do you evaluate the actions of others and how do you perceive the meaning behind those every tiny bits of action? Bits and pieces that forms a puzzle, a challenge for us to solve and understand. Some things might seem so simple and predictable.

For instance, this picture.

You might just see this picture as a simple black and white picture of a scenery where a couple is together, happily viewing the horizon and the beauty of nature. Beautiful yet simple isn't it?

But if you were to pay attention to more details, you get to see a picture of a baby in that same picture! The same goes to people. Some people might seem alright on the outside, but if you were to pay more attention to that person, you might discover more about that person than what he/she might seem to be. Who knows? That person might be hiding their sorrows behind a mask of joy! Ironic isn't it?

~It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife. And isn't it ironic...dont cha think~

Every action and every emotion displayed brings forth a story behind it. Now, What Is Your Story behind your actions and emotions? What is the meaning behind those actions and emotions? Some may hide their story and true feelings behind various masks of convincing emotions but deep down, is it worth hiding it?

To me, the answer still remains a mystery and a puzzle.

Till then, cheers.

Oh ya, before that, Happy 19th Birthday Nicholas Yong Jheng!! May you continue to bring joy towards people around you. Have a good day my friend!

Sight for Flight

2009-08-28T23:10:00.003+08:00

Have you ever wonder what will happen if you're blind?

when we're blind,
we couldn't savour the visual gifts of day and night,
we couldn't be captivated by
the graceful clouds and romantic birds above us,
nor be mesmerized by
the beauty of the smiling moon and giggling stars.

the gift of sight,
allows us to feed our soul with beautiful visuals,
which can make us go up so high,
that the flight to cloud nine is just a mere beginning,
the journey, the destination,
both equally majestic in their own ways.

Sight,
indeed a gift from God,
I thank You.

Oh what do I have that isn't already Yours?

Men & Women

2009-08-22T17:39:00.005+08:00

Today during our youth, we had Pastor Steven to talk about the roles of men and women.

We started off with a 2 lists of things. These were compilation of things from both genders. It was to assist each gender in understanding the other gender.

The lists were:-
1) Things Girls want Guys to know About Girls.
Few things that really caught my attention in that list were:
- Do not equate everything to PMS.
- We don't really feel comfortable with guys watching porn.
- Carry our shopping bags not our handbags.
- Get the hint.
- Do not cling to us so much. You're a GUY!
- We need our personal space.
- Don't be too emo guys!
- Follow us shopping once in awhile and look interested.
- Notice the clothes we wear and if we got a new hair cut.
- If we're nice to you, that doesn't mean we want you to be our boyfriend.

And the list goes on. Those were the only few which I can recall now. The lists for women were TWICE as much compared to the list for men. lol. This either shows that men are so far incompetent or women's expectation are a little too high.

2) Things Guys want Girls to know About Guys.
Few things that caught my attention was:
- Know what makes us angry.
- We like not to miss our football games.
- Don't be so fickle-minded.
- Don't keep asking whether we love you or not.
- Don't compare us with other guys.
- Don't ask us, "do I look good in this or do I look fat? Give me your honest opinion". It makes things difficult for us as there is no right answer.
- We too are sensitive at times.
- We feel neglected at times.
- Just because we are nice to you, that doesn't mean we want you as our girlfriend.

But the most important part of Pastor Steven's message was that in a relationship, there are several aspects such as the physical and emotional side. When we look for a bf/gf, we would want them to feed to our emotions and feelings. Pastor Steven reminded us once again, that the spiritual side is very important too. Ensure that you're partner (bf/gf) is able to help you to grow spiritually as well as God wants you to grow spiritually together with your partner.

* bible reading together *

Another thing to highlight is, is this question. "What do you look for in a bf/gf and in a husband/wife?" Some people want their bf/gf to be happening,fun, popular and cool but wants a husband/wife that is more subtle and homey. Pastor Steven said something like this, "If you have different "criterias" for a bf/gf and a husband/wife, then you're looking forward towards a heartbreak when you start a relationship with your bf/gf". This is because you know that you wouldn't want to spend the rest of your life with your current bf/gf. This is why Pastor Steven reminded us that when you start a relationship, make sure you think that there is a possibility of getting married with that person because if not, you're just aiming for a breakup at the end.
Just more heartache/disappointment/pain/etc. No point starting a relationship when you are indirectly aiming for it to end. Do you want to get all emo and bare the emotional struggles when your relationship ends?

So yeap. Thank God for this reminder again. Thank you Pastor Steven. I'll always try to remind myself that one's future partner must most importantly help you to grow spiritually stronger together. The relationship should help both of you to stay close to God, to grow closer to God and to love God more.

4 seasons

2009-08-20T16:39:00.004+08:00

Although things might have changed, my feelings has not. But hopefully it will, soon, in time for my own good?

Happy Birthday Shan Lung

2009-08-20T09:48:00.002+08:00

Hey bro,

Hope you had a great birthday yesterday! Although I just met you last year, I'm glad I did. You're and awesome friend who never stops to try to make others happy. Besides, you're quite an entertainer. Lol.

Enjoyed all those moments where we go "sight-seeing" together. Hahaha. Stay pretty yo you pretty boy =P.

Anyway bro, thanks for being such a supportive good friend. I wish you all the best in your life. Take care!

2009-08-20T09:34:00.001+08:00

Arrr~

Screw it. Call me stupid, call me irrational, that is because its who I am.

2009-08-18T16:52:00.001+08:00

Did something stupid today.

I won't do it again. (Hopefully).

Haha. =)

Peace out yo!

Who Am I

2009-08-17T22:42:00.002+08:00

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

2009-08-17T19:17:00.005+08:00

What to do when there is nothing to do?
Do nothing.

What to say when there is nothing to say?
Say nothing.

Been thinking a lot lately. Is being nice worth it? Or does it just invite people to take you for granted and step over your head once in awhile? Well, I don't know. Still thinking about it. Just because I'm nice and I trust people easily, that doesn't mean I am stupid and it gives people the right to deceive me. Oh come on, give me some credit please. I may be dumb but I am not THAT dumb.

Another thing, is it a bad thing to trust people easily? People might dig out lots of stuffs from you just because they know you trust them. On the other hand, how much stuffs are they willing to tell you? Is it a one-way or a two-way communication? Something to think about. Thus, to be safe, I guess its time I start shutting my mouth more often. Better safe than sorry?

Lastly, like my friend said, "I don't care. I'm care-free". As the saying goes, "Ignorance is bliss".

* Weeeeeeee! *

BUT no matter what Brian, God is above all and do trust in Him k? =)

Pictures that paint a thousand words

2009-08-15T10:06:00.002+08:00

Sorry. Terslept.

2009-08-15T02:27:00.008+08:00

To all who messaged me on msn from 8.15pm to 2am on Friday (14th August), I apologized for not replying. Sorry guys!

I accidentally fell asleep at 8.15pm. Sigh... For those who know me well enough, you should know why normally I would just crash and sleep early like today. For those who doesn't, its okay. =)

Another day, another journey. Time to chin up boy. Sometimes we have to force ourselves to do things that we don't really enjoy doing but we have to for our own greater good.

"Like cigarettes
I know they're bad for me
But I just can't leave 'em alone."

Interpret it yourself.

2009-08-14T19:52:00.003+08:00

When someone says "with or without the blouse, u've already fallen for me", what does that mean???

Lol.. that conversation occurred when I was talking to Miss *** on msn.. Haha..

So what does it mean? I dunno... you tell me =D

Muslims Demographic.

2009-08-12T22:22:00.002+08:00

If you have the time, just about 8 minutes, then please view this video. I am so fascinated on how religion can spread via giving birth to more children. Due to the fact that many people dislike having a lot of children, it reduces the population of a religion indirectly.

Imagine how cool is that? Religion can spread without swords, guns nor killing. It can be done via increasing fertility rate among families.

Disclaimer: I am not dissing any religion here but merely stating the fact that religion can grow via increased fertility rate.

Bachelor Girl

2009-08-11T08:03:00.003+08:00

"And it felt so good, I want to do it again"

Prayer at the crossroad

2009-08-10T20:44:00.001+08:00

It is contradictory. The mind and the heart. So I really don't know which path to take in this crossroad.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest" from Matthew 11:28.

"No eyes has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him" 1 Corinthians 2:9

No matter what the outcome is, I pray that it would make me stronger, not weaker.

~Praying at the crossroad~

nuff said.

First batch of pictures with my N73

2009-08-09T16:07:00.007+08:00

* the horse which I built *

* Claudia See Yen Wallace *

* the big sister *

* the baby brother *

* Marcus See Han Wallace *

* Jia Sheen's bday lunch *

* Self explanatory *

* free food tastes much nicer right Nicholas? =) *

* walking to bus stop, notice that beautiful moon up there *

* waiting patiently *

Peace out!

Plain White T's : 1,2,3,4

2009-08-08T13:44:00.001+08:00

Heard this song from the radio lately and I find it nice. =)

GI Joe review

2009-08-08T10:43:00.002+08:00

I would say GI Joe is a typical guy show with lots of fire power and explosion.

High tech stuffs with a pinch of comedy. Sadly, in my own opinion, for a guy show, this show lacks female character. There was only 2?

But overall, it is okay la. Sadly, Sim Ee and Ashley had to teman us 10 guys and watch the show. I got a feeling that they didn't enjoy it. Haha

Anyway, im off peeps. Take care!

2009-08-08T10:41:00.001+08:00

If you ask me, my answer is, still the same. Nothing has changed.

Movie tomorrow!

2009-08-06T20:58:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow we'll watching a movie. Hopefully we get to have the GI Joe tickets. The trailer looks so cool! Can't wait to actually watch it. Watch some kick-ass scenes. Haha. Wooohoo!! Here I come GI JOE!

Note to self: if there is nothing good to say, don't say anything.

How now brown cow?

2009-08-06T16:15:00.004+08:00

I saw it, I explored it and I loved it.
But I tried to bleach it thinking it would be better.
But yet it doesn't go away.
It is still there although it only faded a little.
Now, it is more obvious and I can't do anything about it.
I'm starting to accept it as a part of me.
But is it time to face it? I'm not sure.
How now brown cow?

Weird..

2009-08-02T02:34:00.002+08:00

I just woke up due to stupid mosquitoes eating me up. Grrr...

Anyway, I just noticed the dogs around my area are barking and howling. I have no idea why the dogs are acting like this at 2.30am in the morning. Scaaaaarrryy...

Becareful, later got zombies tab your shoulder and breathe right in front of your face.

Okay, back to bed. Nights.

Textbook hunt

2009-08-01T23:37:00.001+08:00

Anyone or their friends have DSM or MIC textbooks for sale? please contact me! thanks =)

Dear Diary

2009-07-31T18:18:00.005+08:00

Dear Diary,

Today I've managed to skip some work and attend a friend's birthday. Thank God my colleagues were understanding and let me off early.

But that is not the main point. At times, such as today, I really ask, why am I just average financially? Sometimes when I see my friends doing so well, I tend to have this jealous feeling.

I know it is wrong of me to feel like that but to be jealous at times is just human right? Isn't it diary? I also know its not anyone's fault, neither mine nor theirs. I know my mom has worked very hard to get us where we are now. I appreciate it. I really do. I know some of my friends don't choose to be rich, it is just that their parents are. All these are not under our control.

But diary, no matter how jealous I feel at times, I'm so happy because of my friends. Though my financial position is no where near theirs, they are ever so humble and accept me for who I am. But sometimes I do feel bad, because I don't get to accompany them to do some activities just because I'm not financially able.

That feeling sucks. You really want to but you can't. But I've learned to be more generous as time passes, though I do not have much, giving shall always be a part of me. Big or small, I still will give.

But back to my friends diary, you know sometimes they are just so nice. I know I'm not the nicest person nor the most interesting person, yet they entertain my silliness. Haha. Great friends I have. I bet it takes LOTS and LOTS of patience to bare with me and yet they still do. How not to love my friends right diary? Haha.

Like today, I really really didn't want to go back early, but I had to. I had to reach home on time to pick my lil bro. Sometimes it is just so unfair, I'm so young but I have to go through so much problems and have to carry so much responsibilities. I'm 18 but I believe I have endured more hardship compared to my peers. Sigh. Life is tough. Anyway, he is my brother after all, I love him and have to sacrifice things that I really really love, like time with my friends.

I really do hope one day my brother understands the sacrifices me and my sister made for him.

Dear Diary, thanks for listening to my pointless rants. I know I'm inadequate for my friends, and I'm so happy I have friends like them. They never discriminate me nor look down upon me. In fact, they are ever so supportive. The bad feeling comes when at times, I couldn't return the favour to them although I really really want to. It sucks. I feel bad because I receive so much blessings from my friends and I'm not able to return as much blessings to them.

And and diary, today my friends were so nice. Everyone was eating except me, 3 friends noticed it and was ever so kind to give me a slice of their food. Haih, tell me diary, how can I repay their kind deeds? But I assure you something diary, one day if I'm ever successful financially, I'll bless the people around me, just like how my friends have blessed the people around them, people like me.

Once again diary, so sorry that you have to listen to me for sooo long. Haha. Appreciate it. *hugs* Thanks for listening and I'll see you soon. Bye diary.

*closes book*

Simpsons

2009-07-29T14:20:00.001+08:00

Thanks to Rizduan, I managed to watch Season 20 of Simpsons.

Know what was the best part? I watch the whole season in less than 24 hours. lol.

So tired... So I guess now is nap time! cya later peeps.

R.I.P Yasmin Ahmad

2009-07-27T18:15:00.004+08:00

Yes, I'm sure by now everyone has heard that the Great Malaysian Icon Yasmin Ahmad has passed away. To be honest, it is really a sad thing how she just lost her life, just like that. Reminded me that life is just so fragile.

Her commercials are just simply, Sweet, Short, Simple and Emotional.

Among all her advertisements, I find this really adorable.

And this, really speaks about family being the most important. For you hokkien people, try to watch this as it is in hokkien.

All her commercials are emotional and that is the best part. It is hard nowadays to find commercials that are close to our hearts. And if you notice, she is trying to reach for a united Malaysia, a country without racism in her commercials. I respect and honour her goal. I really do. Rest in peace.

SPCA

2009-07-26T20:46:00.002+08:00

I find this SPCA video quite nice.

Shows how a dog can be a miracle.

Down and Out

2009-07-20T19:32:00.002+08:00

This morning, I couldn't sleep no more. Slept at 4am and I woke up at 8am due to discomfort. Had really bad body ache. So to try to keep the pain and discomfort off, I watched Zoolander.

After the movie, I really couldn't take it and I went straight to a doctor. Guess what?
High fever (38.5 degree Celsius), headache, cough, throat red and phlegm. Bad enough right?
H1N1 somemore. Home quarantine here I come. Sigh....

Nah, just joking, no H1N1, but please God, protect me from H1N1. I don't wanna die now, I'm too young! hahaha...

Oh oh! I later slept from 11am to 6pm and I still feel like sleeping! LOL. Maybe body too weak d.

Do keep me in prayer please. Thanks. =)

Very Happy but Very Broke

2009-07-17T15:36:00.002+08:00

Disclaimer: I'm not bragging but this post is just simply due to my excessive joy of having new stuffs after so soo sooo long.

Since long ago, I decided that I needed to buy a new shoe and a new watch. Since I was sending my sister to MV for work, I went shopping after I dropped her.

Shopping list has only 2 items which are: Shoes and Swatch.

1) Shoes

I went to Royal Sporting House, Why Pay More?, Studio R and Puma shop to compare prices. After seeing all of them, I went to Puma shop because it gave a 50% discount unlike other shops where it is only 20% off or at full price.

* my running shoes *

So happy that I managed to buy something new at a price so much more cheaper. Shopped smart. =)

2) S-watch

All along, I had no idea why I admire Swatch watches. I think it is due to the design.

Just last year, my cousin gave me his super old Swatch watch bought in 1998. He gave me because he doesn't use it anymore (since 1999 or 2000) because its battery is dead. After I used it for awhile (after I changed battery), the strap spoiled. So I changed the strap and battery today. Hopefully the watch itself is okay because before this, the time is usually slow and sometimes stop. Please please let it be due to the battery. Come on NEW battery! work your magic!

* my new strap *

Then mom was generous enough to allow me to buy a new watch. However, she gave me a budget, anything that exceeds the budget has to come out from my own pocket. Oh well, it is worth it I guess.

I had to choose between two watches (both is equally priced), Watch A: bigger in size, steel strap and has chronograph. Watch B: slightly smaller in size, leather strap and has automatic function(no battery required).

In the end, I chose Watch B because its size is similar to my old one and since I already have an aluminum strap watch, might as well I get a leather one. Plus I don't really use the chronograph function of a watch.

* new Swatch *

* now I got 2 Swatch! please stay alive you Old One! *

At the end, I was so proud of myself because I managed to shop smart and bought the Puma shoes at super discounted price. I also managed to control myself and not enter any apparel shops. Hahaha. Phew....

Now I'm dead broke. Last month I forked out money from my savings and this month I forked out money again. =S

Chinese New Year please please come soon!! I need you!! Hahahaha... XD

P.S. - Sorry for the unclear pictures. My 2MP phone can't do much. =)

Tak Nak

2009-07-13T19:48:00.003+08:00

I'm not sure if you'll read this but congratulations bro!! It is a big step to stop smoking and I'm 100% supporting you. All the best! Hopefully it'll be permanent.

P.S . amaran daripada kementerian kesihatan - merokok membayahakan kesihatan anda.

Pan's Labyrinth

2009-07-13T16:35:00.003+08:00

To be honest, this is the first time me watching a Spanish language movie.

Initially I was reluctant to watch due to the language barrier but after having discovering the English subtitles function, I gave it a go since it was my friend's recommendation. I believed my friend has good taste in movies since the past 2 movies recommended is good.

Surprisingly, the subtitles are precise and accurate, unlike other movies where the person who translate the subtitles did a poor job. After watching for almost 2 hours, I can proudly say that I was glad I watched the movie. Pretty good I would say.

Quite interesting for a fairytale movie. Besides, it has a some gore scenes which I liked. =D

Bored

2009-07-11T01:15:00.001+08:00

It is 1.14am and I'm bored. Not many friends to chat with plus no gaming kaki for tonight...

It is a friday night wei.. =( Sigh... so lonely.

Reflection...

2009-07-09T14:11:00.004+08:00

I just came back from lunch with my former colleagues. Had a nice lunch with them.

Thanks Deepa for buying my lunch!!

But the best part of the day was having a nice 45 minutes chat with my former department manager. She is a Christian, her name is Josephine.

Well, recently, I have no idea why I feel this sense of emptiness, sorrow, irritation, basically, mostly negative emotions. I KNOW that God is the source of happiness, joy and love BUT I seldom apply what I know. Get what I mean?? I know things theoretically but I don't practice it practically.

But thanks to Josephine today, I've learn an important lesson. I can see that she is SO SO HAPPY living in God's grace. From her family, to relationships to her home, God has blessed her so much. She managed to see how God has blessed her so much. Her faith, impressing. Mine?? disappointing.

For her family, God worked miracles in her family in ways she has never expected.

For her relationship, when she was much younger and still single, she prayed that she wants her first boyfriend to be her husband. In the end, God answered her prayer.

For her home, God has blessed her financially to support the loan on her house. She has managed to rent out rooms and gain some additional income. Besides, the tenants are also very nice, caring and well-mannered.

Maybe God is using her to touch my life once again. She reminded me that prayer is so so important. Because she told me that she was very very happy that the things that she prayed, God favoured it and answer her prayers. Hopefully I'll get back on my feet soon spiritually.

It is just amazing how good God is. You might push God aside, but no matter what, God is still right beside me, taking care of me. Isn't He great? :)

* please lead me on Lord *

P.S. - Josephine says I look like a career man. What say you? Do you agree?

Tight budget! STOP ME!

2009-07-08T16:16:00.003+08:00

I've spend 5 days pocket money in 2 days. =S

Bad news. Brian you better going out and using money!!

hahahha... guys, if you see me trying to spend money unnecessarily, please stop me =)

Cheers and good day peeps!!

*P.S. - donations are always welcomed =D

Missing my kids...

2009-07-08T01:55:00.005+08:00

After 3 weeks of not serving in Sunday school, I finally get to be back!!

Miss me eh kids?! =) Well, I certainly do miss you!

Teacher Brian is back!! =D

Anyway, I had an accident today. Minor one. Sigh... For a guy who has knee problems, this is just great.

Brian, be more careful in the future okay? Okay sure! =)

Mimbo moment

2009-07-07T02:37:00.004+08:00

As I was chatting with a friend, he/she told me that his/her dessert failed due to some carelessness.

Firstly, the instructions state "freeze". So my friend told me that he/she put the dessert into the fridge. For a moment, I was thinking what was wrong. To freeze something surely you'll have to put it inside the fridge right??!

After pausing for a few seconds, I just remembered that to freeze something, you'll have to put into a FREEZER instead! hahhahaha... *come on, laugh with me!* hahahhaha =)

Okaaay, that was my Mimbo moment..

* P.S. - name of friend not mentioned to prevent any embarrassment that might destroy one's self-esteem totally. Besides, the post is supposed to be about my Mimbo moment, not to be emphasized on people's mistake...

Free but not so free

2009-07-02T19:38:00.002+08:00

Well, I've finally finished my semester last monday 29June09.

Now I'm on a nice break, but tomorrow will be a super long day for me. I'm going to have 3 meetings in a row.

9.30am-12pm - Smart Pen meeting
12pm-3pm - Taylor's World Class Club meeting
3pm-5pm - Taylor's Student Council meeting.

This is what happens when all the meetings collide on one day on the perfect time slot. Here I come 7 and a half hours of meeting!!

Btw, I've watched transformers and I'm happy.

Lock and Load!

2009-06-23T19:33:00.002+08:00

I've been sleeping quite a lot lately.

Therefore, it is time to Rise and Shine!!

Finals here I come.

All the best guys.

God Bless.

stupid headaches

2009-06-22T23:31:00.003+08:00

Yes. Headaches as in PLURAL form.

For the past 2 days, I'm not sure why I am having headaches.
Stupid headaches = spend more time sleeping.
Spend more time sleeping = Spend less time studying.
Spend less time studying = Higher chances for poor results for exams.
Higher chances for poor results in exams = Sad face.

Please go away headache.. Pretty please??

* slept 11 hours yesterday, today slept 10 hours - now that B.A.D news *
oh well, might as well take this as a rejuvenation session before exams start.

Can't believe it, exam is 1 day away. =S

Female Clothes Clearance....

2009-06-20T20:12:00.003+08:00

Well, I know it is SUPER DUPER irrelevant for a guy like me to be promoting an online shopping blog but I'm doing my friend a favour.

http://timelesstemptations-clearance.blogspot.com/

Here are some samples:

Click here to view the rest of the flashy, eye-catching clothes!

Personal recommendation? I would say good taste of fashion, still in good condition and affordable (like I know right?? I'm a guy who doesn't know prices of female wear).

*If you're wondering why I'm doing this for you, it is because I kelian you la. You want to buy new clothes but not enough money. =P *

Mixed emotions...

2009-06-19T17:24:00.008+08:00

Just got back my accounting group assignment marks...

A mixture of good and bad emotions.

Firstly, I only got 18/25 for it. I thought I could achieve more. The good news is that, 18 is one of the highest marks for that particular group assignment. (lots of credits to Chin Wynn for this)

The bad news is that, after calculating everything, out of 60%, I only have 47.86. That means I can kiss my HD goodbye for Accounting Decision and Accountability (ADA). HD = 85% and above. *i doubt i can get 37/40 for finals*

So in conclusion, the maximum I could get now is,
HD for Financial Management (FM) (24/30)
D for Marketing (37/50)
D for ADA (47.86/60)
D/C for management (34.5/50)

Expected Results:
FM - D
Marketing - D
ADA - D
Management - C

I'll just have to wait to see what results I'll be getting in the end.

Pursuit of Happiness

2009-06-19T12:23:00.001+08:00

Even when you're homeless, it doesn't mean you're hopeless.

I really did enjoy this movie. I love these kind of inspirational true stories. The message was well delivered by Will Smith's emotional acting. Truly a great actor who can reach out with his acting.

Anyway, as I was watching this show, I was thinking,
"Should I allow problems and difficulties to get the best of me?" OR
"Should I get the best of the problems and difficulties?"

I've decided to take the 2nd option.
I should get the best out of the problems and difficulties that I'm facing.

I was complaining about studying for my finals, stating that it was difficult and boring. But what I failed to see until recently, is that, what is this little bit of work?? The amount of effort I'm putting seems so insignificant when compared to the rewards that I could reap in the future.

And now, back to studying I go. I can do it!!! So can you =) All the best guys for finals.

Procrastination

2009-06-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

That is what I do best.

Oh God help me, I'm digging my own grave deeper and deeper by procrastinating.

Getting ready for the war(finals)

2009-06-15T07:31:00.003+08:00

Back from a 3 days 2 nights team building camp.

Was without revision for 3 days 2 nights.

Slept for 14 hours.

Rejuvenated.

Ready to lock n load.

Here I come nerding mode!

Confession?

2009-06-11T20:12:00.002+08:00

Well, I just finished this movie, entertaining I would say. Please don't stereotype me if I watch these kind of chick flicks. I can admit that I watch these kind of shows because it is quite...... an eye opener. Some might be facts and some might be fiction, but in almost every movie, I try to learn from it.

Sometimes have you ever wonder that you were tied down due to a passion or something you really love? Do you feel that it shackles you?

From what I learn in this movie is, in life, in reality, sometimes letting go is rewarding. When you let go, you tend to gain so much more. You might let go your habit of shopping but gain more time to spend with your loved ones. You might let go your obsession for pool but gain extra savings for investment. And this applies to so many more different scenarios.

Many might focus on the main character in the movie, but what caught me was the male actor, playing as Luke. What I learn was you need to open your eyes to see the opportunities that lies outside. Sometimes you get them, sometimes you don't. Also, that shit happens, people you trust tend to disappoint you and making decisions is hard.

And yet, I found that forgiveness leads to a less painful life. Letting go I might say. Letting go of the wrongs people have done to you, letting go the past, letting go the disappointment. After that, ahead you move. Paving the ground for your dreams, it would be hard, extremely hard, but it is worth trying isn't it?

Once again, sometimes things tend to disappoint you, you fail. But what is assuring is the fact that we can reflect and evolve into a better person, hoping that things would get better. Even if I fail again, I'll to pick myself up right? No point ensnaring myself to the ground, constantly bringing myself down. Time to move on... Time to take the first step.. To let go..

And this is a confession from me... What is your confession??

Dreaming

2009-06-10T05:09:00.002+08:00

I just woke up from a sweet sweet dream.

A guy like me seldom dreams when I'm asleep but tonight was exceptional.

This was quite an emotional one and a dream where I felt the connection and love.

Simply awesome. (=

Management Assignment 2

2009-06-09T20:09:00.003+08:00

I just wanna thank God that my 2nd management assignment has improved compared to the 1st assignment. I'm quite satisfied with the results. Praise God.

Klang

2009-06-09T16:03:00.002+08:00

Well, last Sunday I managed to drive to Klang. My mom was having dinner with her close friend, Ben whom I also knew. Ben's gf used to teach in SAM Taylors last year. You might know her as Miss Koh, Alice Koh i think.

Anyway, thanks to my mom for directions, I managed to drive to Klang!! Wooo~ I have always thought that Klang was some super far away ulu place and it takes forever to reach there. Well, I was sadly mistaken, I got there about 20-25 minutes? Thats quite fast I guess. Maybe it is because most of the journey was on a highway which wasn't congested. Besides, my mom allowed me to speed =) hehe..

First we went to Ben's house at Teluk Pulai then to dinner. After the dinner, I learnt a few things:-

1) The prawns and fish there is fresher compared to most places in the Klang Valley.
2) I would die if I were to eat alone in Klang. All the people there order food using Hokkien! And just so you would know, "wah im si hokkien lang". So therefore, super communication breakdown.
3) Most Klang people would bring their own chinese tea leaves to the restaurant.
4) The traffic there is STILL worse than PJ i guess, especially at the bridge area cuz there was some contruction work going on.

Last but not least, no.5) Klang isn't such a bad place after all. It is quite okay I would say. (PJ is still better right? ;)

Looking forward towards my next trip there. Ben said he would bring my family and I to Pandamaran (a nice seafood place according to Shin Yi).

Signing off,
A happy visitor of Klang.